i need a fucking job!! it's gotten to the point now where i just feel like a complete waste, lol. i laugh, but it's really not funny. i know it's time to cut the bullshit and really focus on what's important. it's just hard because no one will respond to ANY fucking applications! i've applied to at least 30 companies in the past 3 months, and i haven't gotten one reply. it's just frustrating.
i worked for this company in valley stream for a little while last year, but it didn't really end too well. the people were nice, and it seemed to be a good starting off point, but the only problem was....no money. i did a bunch of work for some of their clients, and i never got paid....not once. there was a problem with every single client, and it got to the point where it just wasn't worth my time anymore.
i've reached the point in my "career" that i know my work is worth something. i have the degree to back that up. i never had any confidence in my work, or if i did, i never thought it was worth anything because it was all for school projects. i would get a lot of compliments on my work from professors, and even enter a bunch of them in competitions at school, but when it came down to it, i never realized that it would be worth something. which is a pretty dumb thought considering this is what i was going to school for....to make money with my designs. it just hasn't taken off yet. freelance is a bitch. but it could be really cool if i could get some word-of-mouth promotion.....jobs seem to come in more consistently.
right now i'm just trying to teach myself some new programs so that i can be more versatile at whatever job i'm (hopefully) hired for. it's tough though, because there's so much to learn, so many programs, and at times it's definitely overwhelming. i have been a lot more aware of things lately though. for a while i lost any desire to do anything, especially in design. i've just recently began having ideas and seeing things how i used to see them. the most important thing for me has always been that i love creating art. it was this "love" that made me realize that i wanted to do this for a living, because i was always told to do something that you love or else you'll hate your job every day. thankfully i've gotten this feeling back, so here's hoping it will turn into a career real soon. word.
i worked for this company in valley stream for a little while last year, but it didn't really end too well. the people were nice, and it seemed to be a good starting off point, but the only problem was....no money. i did a bunch of work for some of their clients, and i never got paid....not once. there was a problem with every single client, and it got to the point where it just wasn't worth my time anymore.
i've reached the point in my "career" that i know my work is worth something. i have the degree to back that up. i never had any confidence in my work, or if i did, i never thought it was worth anything because it was all for school projects. i would get a lot of compliments on my work from professors, and even enter a bunch of them in competitions at school, but when it came down to it, i never realized that it would be worth something. which is a pretty dumb thought considering this is what i was going to school for....to make money with my designs. it just hasn't taken off yet. freelance is a bitch. but it could be really cool if i could get some word-of-mouth promotion.....jobs seem to come in more consistently.
right now i'm just trying to teach myself some new programs so that i can be more versatile at whatever job i'm (hopefully) hired for. it's tough though, because there's so much to learn, so many programs, and at times it's definitely overwhelming. i have been a lot more aware of things lately though. for a while i lost any desire to do anything, especially in design. i've just recently began having ideas and seeing things how i used to see them. the most important thing for me has always been that i love creating art. it was this "love" that made me realize that i wanted to do this for a living, because i was always told to do something that you love or else you'll hate your job every day. thankfully i've gotten this feeling back, so here's hoping it will turn into a career real soon. word.
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